Over Christmas break, our math teacher moved to Hawaii. This was of course a huge hiccup in our school year, especially given the fact that our grade had a functioning teaching team that relied on one another for support and backup. Instead of writing my initial reaction, which I knew would fade given some time, I've waited to see how the whole thing would pan out. Here is the progression:Initial Reaction:
Shocked. Disbelief. Betrayal- morphing into an increasingly irritable and then extraordinary anger. What the f*** do you mean you're LEAVING???????? There is no way in hell you can seriously be walking out on the best group of students this school has seen in a long time- perhaps ever. I KNOW you're aware of how disruptive this is to the students' lives, let alone their education- especially the population we teach. Hell, you were hired mid-year for the same, exact reason for which your replacement will need to be hired. You can shove all of the personal bullsh** and issues you have with this city and this job. It isn't about you and your g**da** feelings. It's about the kids.
Go sit on a surfboard and rotate.
Secondary Reaction:
WTF. If you were a bad teacher, I'd say- by all means, get the hell out. If your presence in the classroom was dangerous to my students I'd be the one pushing the union, the DOE, and our administration for your removal. As it turns out, though, you're half-way decent and could be a very solid asset if your head was in the game and on the team. The students respect you and know that you are good for them. That said, your commitment was for another full school year and is not over. What you're doing is really, really crappy.
And do you want to know what REALLY pisses me off about all of this? A core group of girls- a group of students excited to learn for the hell of it not just because social pressure demands it- because it doesn't around here- with THAT group you started a basketball season with them, drawing in some of our girls from the fringes and getting them to finally do something productive with themselves this year. And now that's falling flat. They are extremely disappointed. They are crushed. You were told by our very reasonable guidance counselor that you SHOULD NOT start a season that you couldn't finish. Now their team has all but fallen apart, the girls still playing are disenchanted and the fringe girls are back to where they started.
And another thing- don't feed me that "once in a lifetime opportunity" bullsh**. Hawaii's schools have a reputation similar to the South Bronx. You certainly could have gotten a job at a school out there sometime in the future- a future that is at the end of the school year and is not destroying something we'd been building for four months and the team has been building for three years now.
Go sit on a coconut and rotate.
Current Reaction:
When the same guidance counselor found out that you were in fact leaving, she was not shocked or in disbelief. The reaction had nothing to do with you, but with the many, many teachers that came before you. Teaching in the South Bronx is anything but easy and those who haven't been there cannot begin to understand what it's like to be on the front line in education. The fact that we call it the "front line" is somewhat telling.
Secondly, when teachers have left in the past, it has made my life much more difficult. My first year in the classroom was nothing short of horrendous. This was in part due to a lack of team dynamics, which was made worse by that fact that our English position was like a revolving door (those kids had six English teachers in two years). Last year we had a similar, albeit not as serious, problem with the math position. We'd hoped with you stepping into the position that the problem had been solved, but instead you stung us. Had the prior experiences with teachers leaving not occurred, I probably wouldn't have been so pissed.
Lastly, your replacement is working out rather well. He's competent, knowledgeable, and knows from experience what he's gotten himself into. I'm sure, in fact, that there are a few things I could learn from him myself.
Rotating on something might be a bit harsh, but I still hope you have a SPAM overdose or are subjected to some unfortunately warm beer or something like that.
Conclusion:
The whole thing seems to be turning out alright. It's tough to lose a teammate, but getting a solid replacement certainly helps. We were extremely lucky with the mid-year hire, as generally any teacher that is even approaching solid is hired before school starts. If the replacement stays on, which I believe he will, the team will be more solid than ever. This class of students will most likely do as well as we though they would or perhaps even better. While I would probably defend my initial reaction (more because I'm stubborn than anything else), it was a bit extreme.
The whole incident also revived some of the bright-eyed ideas I had in the School of Ed. Thoughts like, "What do you think we're trying to do here?" and "This isn't even about us"- large, generalized thoughts that are quickly cast aside in the first year in the interest of survival- resurfaced. While I'd like to consider myself among the more optimistic teachers around, it's still easy to get caught up in the teachers' lounge-style grumbling from time to time.
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